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30 March 2015 at 5:45 pm

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Macheide’s Aurelian Dream

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The more we know what we know, the more we know we don’t.

Almost a quarter century ago, I wrote an article for an early issue of Contingencies, the #1 magazine for actuaries, entitled “Next Best Thing to an Aurelian Dream“. Now standing at retirement’s shoreline, I am realizing that vision to be as recurring a dream as all those I’ve ever kept dreaming. Maybe if I start now, then a quarter century from now I can look back claiming to have made my dream at least more vivid, if not ever to be real. Or at least to have been content spending an entire lifetime dreaming it . . .

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30 March 2015 at 4:08 pm

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Pensions & Other Post-Employment Benefits 2014

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10-k Annual Reports for Corporate Fiscal Years Ending through 1/31/2015
(with January fiscal years treated as corresponding to preceding calendar year)
– number examined as of 4/1/2015 — 275 –

Charts and Commentary —

(* — pending update, previous data set as of 2/28/2015 being used)

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1 March 2015 at 1:31 pm

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Just Walk Away

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As I continuously update this post through 2015, I will be changing this map to show
the destination equivalent to how far I’ve walked since Christmas 2014.
Clicking on the map navigates to my notes on my walking progress —
through July 11, the equivalent of walking
from home to Albuquerque, New Mexico.

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29 December 2014 at 8:26 pm

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Retired

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I have retired from the workforce.

For my past 41 years, I have been a leader in retirement plans and retirement planning, the last 10 of those years working for the most hated employer on the face of the planet.

For my next 41 years, I will be immersed in retirement life and retirement living, expecting to spend all of those years in the most beloved community on the face of the planet.

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8 July 2017 at 4:03 am

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philobibliologue

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1563I have finished reading Undine, a notable fairy tale by Friedrich de la Motte Fouqué, my own copy being one included within Famous Stories Every Child Should Know, edited by Hamilton Wright Mabie. Undine comes “recommended” by Little Women‘s Jo, it being one she wished to get for Christmas, and it adds a certain charm to think of reading it to her. Thanks, Jo.

In my current reading of Little Women itself, I’ve just passed through the chapters following the letters sent to Mother in Washington, among which Beth’s foresaw the pending shadows, writing “I can’t sing ‘LAND OF THE LEAL’ now, it makes me cry.” Which reminds me of hearing the song during a certain fateful drive home from Nashville that I had about four years ago. Which these days has me playing a fair bit of Silly Wizard, such as —

 
Thanks, Beth.

In my current reading of A Walk through the Dark, I’m up to chapter 20, about halfway through. Eva Piper has just been describing how keeping a personal journal helped her through some of the most difficult times of her caregiving for her husband Don. Me, I’m now rather partial to WordPress, although I too have fill many a handwritten journal through the years. But yes, I quite agree: journaling is a powerful friend. Thanks, Eva.

Having a soft spot for the sestina, my poetry reading for the day has picked up a few gleaned from the pages of the poetry books I received this Christmas —

Thanks, Sara.

Meanwhile, I’m continuing to make progress through Finnegans Wake and Tarantula. Thanks, James. And thanks, Bob.

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27 December 2015 at 7:58 am

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Villanelle Lover

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2015-08-04 19.24.00

The key to a good villanelle is to come up with two lines that are genuinely attracted to each other but also wholly independent of each other, so that their final coupling will feel both inevitable and surprising.

Annie Finch, in introduction to Villanelles

I smiled when I read that. And before reading further, I paused to launch this blog post.

I thought of how I’ve heard it said that a good villanelle is like a great romance. So as I transcribed Finch’s words, I heard her sentence in my head with substitutions for two words: “The key to a good romance is to come up with two lovers that are genuinely attracted to each other but also wholly independent of each other, so that their final coupling will feel both inevitable and surprising.”

Romancing the Villanelle . . .

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4 August 2015 at 8:12 pm

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No Blessing from Lie

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823hoaxI remember being first introduced to hoax chain letter early in my elementary school days. Far from being restricted to childhood play, the ancient concept of pass-it-on-or-else continues to fool adults in hoaxes ranging from dangerous life-ruining pyramid schemes to silly internet memes such as this one that crossed my laptop today. All have in common a threatened curse (or at least grave opportunity loss) if ignored and a promised blessing if accepted.

Some like to pretend that absolutes do not exist. That truth is relative. That each person gets to make up their own truth. Reality is not nearly so casual.

This Internet meme is absolutely false. More to the point: it is a lie. Not a mistake. It is a lie.

Equally absolute: no blessing comes from any lie. Blessing comes only through truth. If anyone who knowingly relies on a lie avoids dire consequences, they do so only by accident or by the grace of God. Anyone who relies on a lie without knowing it to be a lie takes a risk, especially when it is so easy to determine the truth.

And there is no such thing as a harmless lie. Perhaps the malicious harm hidden behind lies such as those in pyramid schemes is more immediate and potentially lethal, but no lie is without consequences.

So obvious a lie . . .

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2 August 2015 at 5:46 pm

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Let’s Get Crackin’

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whipI now own a bullwhip! Thank you, SuziQ!

For the community event being planned for this coming September, one of the songs I’ll be singing is Ghost Riders in the Sky, ranked as one of the Top 100 Western songs of all time. I’ve been coming along pretty well on practicing the song itself, so it’s come time to work on gear and such. Like, maybe finally getting myself another pair of boots. And can I really do this without a cowboy hat?

Watch out, it’s Tex!!!

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19 June 2015 at 6:58 pm

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that familiar tunnel

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i went from room to room of th house
looking for a chair where i could sit and think in peace,
but every room was busy

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1 June 2015 at 5:58 am

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red air over th wall

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over a high wall running endlessly in either direction two mobs of opposing peoples of th same village were locked in violent conflict with historical roots long forgotten. often splatters of blood would fill th air like in a quentin tarantino movie

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31 May 2015 at 7:02 am

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