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final performance

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we were moving into a house that had been custom built for us, every room designed for its purpose, every part of it fit for our living. three main floors, with a basement and a gymnasium and other side halls and rooms, and at either end a fourth floor comprised of a single room meant for a private study. with most of th rest of th place settled in, i began to construct my study in th high room at th near end. driving a small vehicle like a drive mower up th stairs to give me something to help me move things around felt like driving up th steep hill above th pool where i once lifeguarded, except by what was our third floor th ground by th sides faded away until by th top switchback i was driving on just a stretch of path extending high out over open air. my vertigo almost overwhelmed me, but i felt at home coming through th door into my office, so although that room itself felt on its own suspended miles high in dizzying sky, and although my vertigo continued to sweep through me, i felt peace and comfort i’d never known before

back down in th gymnasium, bob was giving a concert for children. after so many years of singing for peers who could not resist finding unintended hidden meanings and holding him to th demands of those misconceptions, he had found a fresh contentment in singing for an innocence that simply accepted his joys and pains and wishes as they were, nothing more, nothing less. from my private study, i slipped into a seat among a small group of parents who were watching the event. as bob began singing his most famous questions, he disappeard from view in a space between th stands, still singing, his voice still coming through th amplifiers. near where he had vanished, several children left their seats to follow after him, but most of th audience remained in their seats, hushed, listening to th holy words of his song like at a sacred cathedral.

i realized he would finish his song offstage and not return, so i left my seat and went under th gymnasium stands at th other end from where he and th small group of children had gone. although nobody spoke out, there was a hint of disapproval in th air, as though i should not be violating his space, as though i could not be as any of th children who had followed after him. without a word of my own, i dismissed th concerns: without directly quoting his promise about my dreams and his, i knew that that promise held here as strongly as if this were th moment it had reached for, that as he had felt welcomed here into my own home, so too would i be welcomed into th moment he was now moving toward, reaching for, laying down through his words and his voice

there were other words to this song that he had written from th first but never until now shared, not even privately. sharing it now with these children, one sensed he was singing this song out loud for th final time. as we had been moving into our house, in starting to feel out and characterize and fill every space that had been created for us, we had set up a bed and a couch and th beginnings of some small comforts for a cozy guest room beneath th stands. coming upon this, he had relaxed onto th couch as he began th final verse of his song. he glanced at me only once, a look of infinite depth and weary peace, no need to express anything about what th moment meant or might lead to. but i had only come beneath th stands to be sure he had found th room and had everything he needed, and that glance told me enough, so i went back to my seat and listened to th end of his song with th others

“his eyes are as blue as they always said,” was all i said to you when he was done

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Written by macheide

26 May 2008 at 4:04 am

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Family-Made Feast

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family-made feast
Jenny was just starting her work shift as we headed south today, so we stopped for lunch at the Subway where she works. I was planning to shoot for a double-meat 12″ BMT until Susan reminded me that as late as we were lunching, that would kill my appetite for a second pass at RH&B. So I settled for 6″ of Subway’s newest sandwich, currently their featured item: the “Feast“: spicy Pepperoni, Genoa Salami, Black Forest Ham, tender Roast Beef, Turkey and American Cheese.

(Side Note: Learned the tip that little portions of vinegar placed out on the sandwich bar keeps flies away.)

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25 May 2008 at 2:58 pm

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RH&B Double Trouble

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rh&b double trouble

Can’t do much better: right next door to our Plano TX hotel was a Red Hot & Blue!

The first pulled pork sandwich I ever had was served up Memphis style at RH&B’s Frederick MD location. It’s been one of my favorite sandwiches ever since, although I’ve not since had one as good as RH&B’s. That, and I picked up a RH&B CD to keep their selection of blues music close to my ears.

Here Susan and I share half a basket of onion rings for an appetizer and peach cobbler with ice cream for dessert. For dinner, she has a huge baked potato topped with pulled pork, while I pig out on pulled pork, sausage, corn on the cob, and hushpuppies.

Our version of RH&B double trouble: We’ll be back here tomorrow night for a pulled pork sandwich each.

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24 May 2008 at 5:31 pm

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Plugged In

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plugged inHaving realized that the Vector iMobile power equipment that Kelly gave me for Christmas does me no good sitting atop seldom-used books at my office, today’s trip up to visit Jen finally gives me my first opportunity to give it some action.

Of course, now it would help if I were to actually plug the power cord into the laptop itself.

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24 May 2008 at 9:12 am

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Birthday Blessings, Bob

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24 May 2008 at 6:57 am

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Frap Float

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Little Did You Know: I can float a frap!!

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22 May 2008 at 7:20 pm

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60k Should Be Enough

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60k should be enough
To paraphrase and reapply a mythical comment supposedly made by Bill Gates.

This morning’s commute the Blue Bug reached a major milestone. Not bad for almost ten years of service, especially since its odometer was well over halfway there by the time I inherited the vehicle from Susan when we got the Burb, which easily passed 60k before we traded that in for the Bitty Burb, which also has long since passed this mark.

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22 May 2008 at 6:07 am

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during a brief break, th speaker sitting in th center asked if anyone knew if i were there. i was sitting at th edge of th room to her right, and i raised my hand to acknowledge i was present. she asked if i would look into a highly technical issue that would be coming up during th second half of her presentation. i responded that i had already begun working on it, and would have a complete answer for her shortly

i had approached th speaker table to discuss this with her. she reached out to touch my arm during our discussion, and half playfully half defensively i tossed her so that she did a somersault into th center conference room, laughing as she tumbled, as though aware that th technical answer she sought would do th same

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22 May 2008 at 4:04 am

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Half Wise, Approximately

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What time did you get up this morning?

meme from susan


Around 2:30am. Credit that to stress over a new high-profile work assignment. No matter how many of these I get, I’ll still always stress out over each new one that comes to my desk.

Insomnia being inevitable, I went out into our study and read through the 59-page fax I’d received just before leaving the office. Damned either way there: either I read the fax sometime during the evening and let my brain race so much that I would never have made it to sleep until 2:30am anyway; or as I did, I shelved the fax until this morning, which then was bound to mean that it would wake me before my usual 4:30am first alarm.

By 6am this morning, after reading the fax and starting preliminary research on my response, I was back for more sleep; but I only got a fitful hour’s nap, so was back up working by 7am. An unsuccessful attempt at a mid-morning nap and a shallow mid-afternoon nap carried me through the day.

Let’s just say we are hoping this is not one of my typical days that I might have selected for responding to this particular meme question.

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Written by macheide

21 May 2008 at 8:51 pm

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Texas “Snow Shoveling”

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texas 'snow shovel' pile
Back before I turned Texan, up in the northeast, good neighbors helped each other out shoveling snow off the sidewalks, in which case this pile at the end of our sidewalk would be white and cold.

A few days ago, Ross was outside clipping and offered Susan he’d clip some for us off our front trees while he was at it. I’m not the one who would have thought to do so: I probably would have let the things grow wild until they gave us the illusion of a forest in our front yard. Now they look as civilized as I do after an excursion to see Gloria.

well-needed trim

Thank you, Ross. Look for me out front next time it snows here, if not before.

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Written by macheide

21 May 2008 at 6:00 pm

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Future Breaking News

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Scary enough humor when BreakingNewsOn turned a 1 into a 3, waking us with news that the price of oil had reached $133, when it had actually only climbed to $113.

Ghost story blooper becomes grim reaper reality when it turns out they should not have deleted their blooper, but only shelved it for a mere five weeks.

At the risk of missing out on mid-summer’s headlines, I’m still not turning their alerts back on.

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21 May 2008 at 4:51 pm

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Can’t Sustain

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The intraday DJI left a serious dent in my 13k ceiling yesterday, but still just doesn’t have enough equity buyers to turn my ceiling into a floor. Read the rest of this entry »

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20 May 2008 at 7:19 pm

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20 May 2008 at 3:22 pm

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Sync — Eagles: The Very Best Of (Disc 2)

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Other half of this past weekend’s purchase, the EaglesThe Very Best Of, moves over to my Zen Vision:M

  1. Life in the Fast Lane
  2. Wasted Time
  3. Victim of Love
  4. The Last Resort
  5. New Kid in Town
  6. Please Come Home for Christmas
  7. Heartache Tonight
  8. The Sad Café
  9. I Can’t Tell You Why
  10. The Long Run
  11. In the City
  12. Those Shoes
  13. Seven Bridges Road [Live]
  14. Love Will Keep Us Alive
  15. Get Over It
  16. Hole in the World
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Written by macheide

19 May 2008 at 4:08 pm

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Hot Weather Cold Water

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Water Temperature: 76°

t weather cold water

Of the six days I’ve dipped in the pool this season, that’s the coldest the water has been, after briefly reaching 82° on the heels of a few 90+° air temp days.

I don’t mind the chill. I wouldn’t want it much warmer. Whatever the air temp is out today, the humidity made it intolerable. After backwashing the pool with Susan, I took Gertie’s cage off into the shade on the other side of the driveway for an overdue cleaning. The shade did nothing to cool down the early evening sweltering over: within minutes, the “exertion” of scrubbing the cage wire with an old toothbrush had me sweating so profusely that I couldn’t see.

Sometimes I find myself very seriously hating this cursed city’s idea of weather.

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18 May 2008 at 7:04 pm

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Memo To Self

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memo to self

I need to help remember to bring along the reusable grocery bags. Does us no good when they’re sitting back at the house.

New soda for me: Big Peach, made by Big Red. Also picked up a tapioca pudding snack pack.

Susan gave me approval to purchase anything Krogers had in the far back corner of the store until she saw they had a Harley sitting there. Later amendment to her approval: if I could swing the Harley within no more than the amount tab for our basket of groceries – about $115 for this trip – then I am allowed to purchase two. So if McCain’t wins in November and continues the W Administration’s policies, by next year maybe a grocery cartful will be more expensive than a hog, and I’ll be on two wheels!

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18 May 2008 at 5:04 pm

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Best Thing On

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best thing on

Dish Network farts yet again.

We never had any of this until our old satellite box burned out late last year and we picked up this new one. I must admit, this new box is a significant improvement, what with its artificial intelligence capability: when it recognizes that there’s nothing but crap on the screen, it gives us this sort of programming, which is far far far superior to whatever had happened to show up by default otherwise. And infinitely more responsive than if we were “relying” on cable.

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Written by macheide

18 May 2008 at 3:49 pm

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