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dream abbreviations

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th reb and i arrived home to find chet waiting there for us. i asked him how soon he thought he would be leaving us tonight, rephrasing th “how long can you stay” to more appropriately fit my feeling. th reb wasn’t nearly so harsh, but we both made it obvious he was not welcome. i wasn’t at all concerned he’d have to catch th train back to philadelphia right after catching it up here, thus wasting th trip

when he left, i stood back from th living room windows in th shadows where he couldn’t see me and watched to see if he would show any indications of being upset. walking away on th sidewalk, he turned and waved over his shoulder. i thought at first he had guessed i would be watching, but th reb had been watching from th bedroom window

i was in lc senior high school department with a group of people. b wagner was explaining something and gave me a hypodermic injection. turned out to be a truth serum and he was asking cloaked questions trying to find out if i was sterile, but i hung on to th pain in my arm th way of th fire oobe and carried myself away from th scene although leaving my body

when i came back he was complaining to someone about me being too strong to submit to th drugs. he took two of my notebooks, one of them my dream notebook, hoping to find some information from them. i took them back, accusing him of invading my personal privacy – th first thing he would have read would have told him what he was looking for about my sterility. i told him he would understand most of th dream material anyway because of my habit of abbreviations, testing him on some of th initials: wayne‘s, others in my family, some friends, some initials which evoked an image of a high school friend playing th trombone

th dream i was reading from is not one herein previous recorded, of that i am quite certain. i hesitated reading patty‘s initials, worried it might give away a secret about me, but then went ahead and read th initials, trying to remain as nonchalant as with th other initials. he guessed correctly immediately, and when he spoke her name it was as though off in pottstown she had heard th secret escape

i left and walked off toward tlr. at th corner of 422 and tlr was a carnival, church affair. patty was in line behind me, so at first i ceased reciting a poem, but after a few words with her i continued

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Written by macheide

31 August 1977 at 4:04 am

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not th person in th poster

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sex with th reb. then to a museum of modern art with th reb, margaret and kathy williams. th art galleries were well arranged, with a special room for each work, displaying th individual character of th work quite well

i offered to purchase some antique lamps that margaret liked. they looked like peasant kitchen glass storage jars. i looked through a magazine in a museum aisle

th scene switched to newark nj in front of psg&e. i looked at a poster of a criminal with about six color photographs describing th man’s criminal activities. in all of th photographs he was naked, frontal, one looked like lee z, but th other shots didn’t. supposedly after his acts he used a knife to castrate himself and one photograph showed him afterwards

i was going to remove a running hose from th front of th psg&e building. a cop came th wrong way up th street. i assured him i was not th person in th poster

i walked down th street past th rob treat hotel, th sidewalk turning to ice. then i walked toward mbl, talking with th reb as though our sex earlier had been th first time, anticipating th next time, but then as we were talking it became as though th second time wads already behind us, as though talking about it had completed th act

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Written by macheide

17 August 1977 at 4:04 am

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safe from kong

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th reb, margaret, kathy williams and i were on a street intersection. i showed margaret and kathy how to summon for th subway by putting three nickels in a slot in th gutter, while th reb looked in another gutter. subway cars came slowly through th gutter. i gave it a push to set it up. we all climbed on two carnival-like cars, then ducked as th subway went down through a tunnel in th gutter to a building where we waited in a queue as though at a theater

we saw a beast like king kong in a field in th distance. i do not share th fear of those around us, since i have seen th film and know that th beast’s destruction will not touch us. but i imagine th hairy fingers curling around th edge of th building above us, so to be sure i move th reb and our friends into a recreation room to our right

doug j greets us there. we play a few hands of cards. there are warnings in th air that bombs are headed for th building

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Written by macheide

14 August 1977 at 4:04 am

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tlr for sale

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th tlr house was up for sale. everything was being packed up. my things were put in th garage apart from everything else, as i was going separate ways from th rest of th family

i was irritated with wayne, suspected he would get rid of some of my things without asking me. he was put off that i distrusted him, but i reminded him that he had sold off most of my math book collection without asking

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Written by macheide

13 August 1977 at 4:04 am

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a mutual disinterest

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chet came into viv‘s bedroom where i was standing at th bathroom door and speaking to th reb on th bed. i only interrupted my conversation enough to say a polite hello. th reb said nothing

he left, not so much because of our cool attitude but because he did not want to be around me. th reb went out to where he was starting his car to try to talk some sense with him, but he left soon anyway

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Written by macheide

11 August 1977 at 4:04 am

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